I hate my life..

Get yourself a daylight lamp - sounds to me as if you are (all?) suffering from a lack of natural light. In Finland it turns them all to drink! Lovely people otherwise.
Given the filthy weather outside my windows today, we have what the Irish call a 'High Stool Day' - if you are old enough get into a bar and stay there.

Man you sound clinically depressed. I’d mention that to your mother and ask for help. Go to your doctor and describe exactly what you have told us. He/She will probably prescribe medicine for you. I take Effexor XR to lighten my symptoms, and it does a good job of making the lows less intense and of shorter duration. Depression is hard to beat, but it is beatable. You can start by exercising everyday for at least thirty minutes. Throw yourself into school, and do your very best to learn everything that you can. Education will be of great benefit to you later in life and will help improve your self image. Become a social butterfly and be friendly with as many people as possible. You are going to need friends. Girls are easy when you understand that all they want from you is your soul. I’m kidding. They want to be your friend and then later they’ll want your soul.

When I was your age I thought everybody was looking at me, and they weren’t. I thought I was fat, and I wasn’t. I thought I was ugly, and I wasn’t. We all have the same insecurities; you’re just feeling them very intensely right now making them seem worse than they really are.

You know what Caravel, You are allright... Not to say the other posts here were not considerate and an attempt to be helpful- I just sense something in you... Right on.

I didn't read what others had to say, BUT...

Depression is a common problem. When you feel bad, you know it. I've been there so here's my take.

Bluntly, if you want to surmount this difficult time in your life, psychotherapy works. You brain is always altering itself. The more you do something, you more your brain expects it. It actually 'reconfigures' itself to make you behave in such a manner based on how you live your life.

To beat it, you have to think differently. You need to understand you really can do anything you want, including be happy. That positive thinking - as hard as it may be to you - will change the chemistry in your brain over the course of weeks, months and even years. Try to see the good in things because there's almost always something worth appreciating in even the most heinous situations. Also, understand that you are who you are - some people only have a couple of friends - that's fine! We're social animals so our social status means a lot to us, but some personality types work best alone. You are probably one of those people. Just because everyone else has 10938409834 friends, doesn't mean you need to. And if you don't like your crowd now, things will change once you start working etc...

For some personality types, this is a terrible crutch. I'm one of them. Eventually, you play games SO much that very little else really satisfies you. When you aren't playing, you probably become sad and irritable and you probably have a difficult time stopping when you want to. It's not an addiction, necessarily, because the effects wear off without permanent harm, but the brain treats it simliarly to drugs. It's all about that 'routine' you get in. Your brain rewards you by giving you chemicals that approve of your actions while you play games. You 'feel good' in a sense. Your brain expects you to play games and rewards itself every time you dive into that alternate universe. You should set (reasonable) rules for your gaming habits and (reasonable) consequences if you don't follow them. The goal is to cut down the amount of gaming you do and work on making your life better during that time. Look into furthering your education, learn how to do something with your computer, hang out with one of your friends etc...

And you know, life is hard. It's harder for some people than others, but making and keeping relationships, friendships and social status is difficult. Don't mistake difficulty for impossibility. You ARE capable of these things!

Something else to consider is your unstable. You are young. Your brain doesn't fully develop until your mid 20's. If you're still depressed by then, you definitely need help. But for now, it sounds mostly horomonal and situational... not I-have-a-problem-so-bad-that-it-needs-drugs depression.

hmm... im not an advanced guru here..., but hey., im also depressed like you few years back....

it goes like i'm sent oversea to do some study and of course., after a month of start, im goes really depressed like you... or maybe worse...

so i figure it out that when it comes to depression., you're not alone... right now i have one very close male cousin who is depressed and now going mad, uncontrollable, and even his parents were so much disappointed with him...

i may suggest that do not be the next victim of it....
one more., never consider yourself as ugly, or too beautiful or so ever...
remember that theres too much people who are uglier than you.
that also goes for those who are better than you... we are just in between.... so there's nothing to be ashame for... my last suggestion is try to find couple of friends., no matter male or female... and make numbers of friends until you could find one who is good for you...

Good Luck.., hope you get well soon...

Relax. Keep your own council. Don't try too hard to make everyone your friend. The ones that will be worth knowing will not be hard to recognise. Love slowly only those who deserve it.

Hi! The truth is at some point in our lives we are all you. We don't fit in, aren't happy, you think your family is on another planet because they are all wrapped up in themselves. The truth is you are responsible for you, you heal from the inside out. You have to like you. Understanding you have a problem is a good start. Try to find someone you can talk to. Counseling is great, church is great, but always chose friends wisely. If you are a follower be careful who you chose to follow. There are lots of confused folks out there. My dad always told me, if you want to learn something fnd someone who is a lot smarter than you. That is what life is, a journey a learning experience, computers are great if you learn from them and don't let them and games control you life. IT all starts with you!

I know how you feel

Lead it'll be alright, I know exactly how you feel. Except for the bully'ing part. I was depressed about my parents divorce and I even starved because of having very little money.

You need to look for way outs and what could be your own little world.
Like what helped me was that I just liked music and then became interested in learning how to play a guitar after playing guitar hero. I use music as a type of therapy. Like if i'm mad or sad I'll watch someone play a guitar solo and think about all the notes he's playing at fast speeds.

Another thing which really helps (why therapists are so useful [I didn't have one]) is to have a friend to vent on. Someone just to listen to your problems will actually make you feel better (fortunately for me my best friend was going to major crisis too so we slowly helped each other)

One other thing helped me was that well.... I've been addicted to looking at porn since I was ... 8 i think so every now and then it would cheer me up. lol ^_^

I guess this is why only cloudy and rainy days make me happy.

as for the girls thing, no sweat. There is a girl probably who likes you but is too shy to admit to it. Thats how it was with me, except I met her a year ago and we were talking about our parents divorces.

so whatever works for you.

It Rains Here Sometimes Too.....

If We're going to keep resurrecting this thread we should probably start a "Group Therapy" heading in "Meeting Spot" and find someone who's actually qualified to steer it.
It seems everybody's confused and depressed. I think it's from burning yourself out playing video games. Then when the fatigue sets in from adrenal exhaustion, life doesn't have the same pizazz. This especially to a teenage boy when he find out he's not a tough in the real world as he is in COD. Life does stink when you're forced to confront reality. It's sort of like pulling your head out of your a**, then realizing you've stumbled into a cesspool.

But then, what do I know.

Video gaming does cause a plethora of "interesting" psychological side effects.
My somewhat trite encapsulation of these phenomena is this; "life sucks, and then you have to put down your mouse".

In my case I'm not sure if I was addicted to games or not. I do know that by the time I was in my mid twenties, the appeal for games diminished somewhat. I got to the stage where I started to realise how formulaic and cliched most games were. I think this is the same with most interests or hobbies, in most cases it will eventually burn itself out.

Also, while I agree with the others here, don't be too hasty to classify yourself as "depressed". It's so easy to find a label for one's self and then say "oh it's ok I'm depressed, it's ok that I'm like this, and there's nothing I can do about it".

I may be wrong but I think you're just going through a "difficult adolescence" and that in time you'll get over this and look back on this period and wonder what it was that you were stressing over.

As I said in my previous post, don't let anyone step on you, or disrespect you, but at the same time learn to ignore the comments of those that don't matter to you. You may feel hurt inside but don't let your enemies see this. When dealing with the vulgar, base and immoral don't give them the satisfaction of seeing you hurt.

Also try not to be too judgemental. Some of your posts allude to the physical appearances of others, don't be superficial. None of us are perfect after all.

Bitterness, resentment, envy, hatred and revenge never helped anyone and they won't help you either.