AlbertLionheart
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Relax. Keep your own council. Don't try too hard to make everyone your friend. The ones that will be worth knowing will not be hard to recognise. Love slowly only those who deserve it.
Rick said:I didn't read what others had to say, BUT...
Depression is a common problem. When you feel bad, you know it. I've been there so here's my take.
Bluntly, if you want to surmount this difficult time in your life, psychotherapy works. You brain is always altering itself. The more you do something, you more your brain expects it. It actually 'reconfigures' itself to make you behave in such a manner based on how you live your life.
To beat it, you have to think differently. You need to understand you really can do anything you want, including be happy. That positive thinking - as hard as it may be to you - will change the chemistry in your brain over the course of weeks, months and even years. Try to see the good in things because there's almost always something worth appreciating in even the most heinous situations. Also, understand that you are who you are - some people only have a couple of friends - that's fine! We're social animals so our social status means a lot to us, but some personality types work best alone. You are probably one of those people. Just because everyone else has 10938409834 friends, doesn't mean you need to. And if you don't like your crowd now, things will change once you start working etc...
For some personality types, this is a terrible crutch. I'm one of them. Eventually, you play games SO much that very little else really satisfies you. When you aren't playing, you probably become sad and irritable and you probably have a difficult time stopping when you want to. It's not an addiction, necessarily, because the effects wear off without permanent harm, but the brain treats it simliarly to drugs. It's all about that 'routine' you get in. Your brain rewards you by giving you chemicals that approve of your actions while you play games. You 'feel good' in a sense. Your brain expects you to play games and rewards itself every time you dive into that alternate universe. You should set (reasonable) rules for your gaming habits and (reasonable) consequences if you don't follow them. The goal is to cut down the amount of gaming you do and work on making your life better during that time. Look into furthering your education, learn how to do something with your computer, hang out with one of your friends etc...