The Fantasy Continues..
My Nickname-o-graphy:
hmm.. where to start..
once upon a time, i was drawing/writing stuff on a piece of paper out of extreme boredom. then i played around with my nickname, which is written in thai, and figured that it could be drawn into a cartoon. actually, it's nothing, just use the first alphabet in my name (when written in thai), "Í", as the body and then just draw heads and arms and legs. i thought it was really unique so i stuck with it till now (around 5 years already, i think)
at first, i used to draw it with a cape, like superman, so i called it "
A-Man" since the first alphabet in my name when written in english is an "A". superman = a-man, stuff like that..
but then the name is NEVER available when i sign up on websites. so i had to put in numbers behind it. i used to use A-Man001 as my e-mail usename. but since i hate having names similar to others and have to be distinguished through numbers, i dumped that name after some time.
next, i used "
na181920". this is related to my favorite singer (i am a star freak, if you haven't figured out from my sig), and i even had it carved on my graduation ring. but then i found out that this name is not totally unique either (found one guy with this name), and i needed a new name that would give a more "general" feeling on non-celebrity sites. so now i just saved this name for star-sites/boards.
and so now i needed a new name. sth that would truly express myself and gives a general feeling that can be recognized anywhere.. i thought and thought.. several nights passed by.. and at last, i came up with what seem to be the perfect solution..
"
ai", in japanese, means "love".
"
hate", in english, means...well, "hate"
so there are 2 words from 2 different languages originated from (almost) 2 sides of the globe with 2 totally different meanings...
and when put together and read in english, it reads "
I hate" (not "AH-EE-AH-TEE", cabrone
) which, of course, means "hate".
so how does it express me? well, first of all, (i'm told that) i'm extremely sensitive on certain issues. so i don't usually have the "so so" feeling on things/issue. i'm usually on one side, not in the middle, so that's "ai" (love) & "hate".
but i was told that sometimes, i seem to be pestimistic about some certain stuff. so the reading of my name, "I hate", serves this.
other reasons are such as the word "ai" is one of my favorite words in japanese. especially when it's written in kanji (chinese alphabet). but even when it's written in hiragana (japanese alphabet), i think it still looks good. not to mention that it's one of the first japanese kanjis i learned.
and i seem to like the word "hatred" a bit too. dunno why, i guess i just like the sound of it. so i use the word "hate".
AFAIK, if read in japanese, "Ai Hate" would be read "ai ha-te". i'm not sure what "ha-te" means, but at least it can be read in japanese.
some other names i use are such as "
F.F.Slave" which i used when signing up for ign.com (a game site). as you can see, the name says it all, so i plan to use it on every gaming sites i sign up for, if i actually do, that is. another one is "
The_Ammar" which i use it as my e-mail account. you see, "Ammar" is my first name, and i wanted my name to sound BIG, IMPORTANT, THE ONE AND ONLY.. voila..
so far, i haven't seen anyone use the name "Ai Hate" yet, so i'm quite happy. though it's getting old, and i wouldn't mind changing, it's still suits me the best (i think). now, i'm considering whether i should change my e-mail account to the name "Ai Hate" too.. maybe not now since "The_Ammar" is doing a great job making my friends remember my e-mail (remembering "ASOW156872" wouldn't be as easy, would it?). but maybe the time will come when i can't control the spamming in "The_Ammar"..
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